Letting go.....

True Love they say means being able to let go, and there is joy in realising that you have loved and not lost . I've asked friends many times what it means to be in love and pondered many times on whether I have been that fortunate, well I have!!!i have embraced the emotions, the ups and downs and the control that secret love requires, wanting many times to yell from the top of a mountain or maybe a sky scraper (lol) that I am yours and no one else matters, I have been committed to you even when you were committed to two or three others and have waited in line for my turn as would a concubine in Solomon's harem!But letting go has never felt so good.....no more painful tears , I cry now with joy , the experience was remarkable , and I would do it all over again....

I once read that living life completely is loving with your heart, truly, deeply, and no inhibitions knowing that you might get hurt but it would have been worth it.Missing someone next to you can be so excruciating but loving them no matter what is even more fulfilling.i am more knowledgeable now, i learnt so much from being with you.....i have NO regrets! People come into your life for different reasons and maybe yours was to show me a glimpse of what's to come!

I once wrote a poem about my first love at the touch of whose love I became a poet , at the touch of yours I became a WOMAN! I know what i want in a man now , I know how it feels to be desired, wanted, needed, appreciated. I think you didnt even know what to do with me , and I was probably more alluring when you felt I was incapable of letting myself go. Now I have and once again through the rough you've made me smile, I have bad memories but I have good ones too and knowing that side of you has given me wings! The only problem is now I can't settle for less , you've upped the ante once again and I only wish that I let you go for HER and not her , it would have been more meaningful, but maybe it is best this way cause I am consoled that it would take a lot more to re-capture our magic with her....

I feel happy that I can still be in your life but out of harm and hurt's way, I am relieved, you are and forever will be my friend and somewhere deep down you have made my hall of fame.You don't need to feel akward around me , i'm past that! True love means never having to say you're sorry , I CHOSE to love you and I CHOSE to let you go and neither was your fault, I am re-defined and excited now, so fly freely my butterfly cause letting you go (truly) has set me free...