The tears have become my bestfriend, knowing when to stop , keeping my secrets....none of this is new to me, i knew before i knew and i boasted to myself that i would get over the pain and do it all over again if i could...well i didnt anticipate that my heart would fall ill , it aches it cries it stifles it basically remains in constant pain! what am i afraid of? Why do we even fall in love? Why does it hurt so bad still? i am not going to lie to myself anymore...not going to paint you as a saint to make the fantasies more romantic,,,,dude u played me period!!!!!
How could you trivialise something that means so much to me?how could you not see that i give everything to you? guess its my fault for doing that though , i knew the deal but yet i let my heart fall deep and my head roll tumbling after..Lord help me heal! sometimes the tears well up so much but its too painful to cry and you! you? all you do is act like there is nothing underneath the look on my face , its always been a lose lose for me and here you are smiling all the way....i hate to believe that i was happy being second maybe even fifth best , but having to move on this way makes everything seem really worthless....i almost loved you for the rest of my life but ......
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Again sorry dreamgirl but you were not played. Whether you believe it or not… the Love is true and there were no jokes to it. People deal with crisis in different ways… it’s not everyone that hurts that cries, some use humour/try to trivalise issues to get over them. You appear to fail to see the other person’s hurt and can’t see the motive behind the action.
Seems you only see the action but apologies about your hurt – it wasn’t intended. You really need to see the other person’s hurt also. Seems your love has now gone but the other person must come to terms with his and the disconnection from you if yours is gone and forge ahead in life. Love soothes but it also hurts sometimes and if you do hurt then you share this with another.
My fav anon! Thanks for the comments, you sound like my shrink lol! And you sound like you know who we are, truth is communication is not a problem and I will always love him but sometimes emotions are not enough, this blog is just a diary of a broken heart , its not all pain just staying true to the theme! I would do it all over again if I had to!
I reckon the time has come to take down this blog... don't you?? can't be friend... can't be lover. Live on dreamgirl...
is it over?? the love is true and can overcome every obstacle. is it really over?? surely all you both need to do is talk - leaving the past in the past and build a future together..is it over??
u r still # 1
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